So I have been in the apartment for a month now. Things are getting settled down. I am still confused about where God is leading me. Earlier this year there was a great period of time when I thought I would be moving to Austin. I don't feel that door closing, but I also do not feel I am supposed to go as of yet.

The consequences of my current living situation are that I may lose my job at the church and I may also lose a leadership position I have in a singles ministry. I know that I am not doing anything wrong, however the appearance of evil has others running. I don't blame them. I completely understand that the church cannot appear to be supporting what I am doing. It could only hurt others. So, if that happens, I will be at the mercy of God to help me make the finances work. It will be a struggle, but I am sure it can happen.

I have also been thinking about getting rid of my truck and finding something with a lot lower monthly payment - if any at all. I am not sure how to address that, but I am in prayer and Hope that God will answer soon.

There is quite a bit going on, but I have little heart to sit and write it all here...it is already in my personal journal and will have to stay there for now.

I have been reading "Celebration of Discipline" and have just gone through the chapters on Prayer and Fasting. WOW! I am going to read them again and again. I may not even get past this for some time. I can already feel a difference in my prayer life, and wonder if I am meant for fasting. I would have to prepare myself for it and make sure that it is with right motives.

Well, I have to go now. I have the menu for the week to prepare and then I have a meeting with my mentor!

Christa