You know that you are on the right track when Satan comes on the attack. He sure did this weekend. I was SO beaten up that when it came time to spend time with God, I was distracted and felt distanced from God. I know He was right there...I was having a hard time letting go of me.

On the way home, I began to think about what the issue was today. I wanted to work it all out so that I do not have to spend another Sunday worship service like that one. I pulled out my journal and as I began to write, I realized that Satan had been lying to me all day long. I typed out a list of about 15 lies (and there may have been more) that had been whispered in my ear all day long. All the lies were in conflict with who I think I am, and who GOd knows I am...but affected me just the same. I would like to be better at identifying the enemy's attacks when they are happening so that I can ask for prayer from fellow brothers or sisters and get the attackers to leave!

The good news is that I ended the journaling session with a list of things that God had done for me that day. I know I missed some, but writing out what I could think of at that moment was a balm on my spirit. Somehow those things calmed me and helped ease the upset I had inside.

I need to remember that over the next few weeks and months as I start building my business full time. I am still scared, but I need to make this work. It is either do, or lose everything.

I choose not to lose!!!